Black is beautiful. White is beautiful. Asian is beautiful. Hispanic is beautiful. Fat is beautiful. Skinny is beautiful. Gay is beautiful. Straight is beautiful. Bisexual is beautiful. You are beautiful.
Who wants the perfect guy? Not me. I don’t want anyone perfect. I don’t want anyone normal, thats just boring. I want someone weird. I want someone unpredictable. I want someone who lets things slide and who loves to laugh and makes me laugh. I want someone who will be crazy about me, and isn’t afraid to let everyone know it. I want him to be able to tell me to shut the hell up when I am bugging him. I want someone who challenges me, in every way. I want someone who puts up with my shit, but isnt a pushover. I want someone who pisses me off, but I can never be mad at. But perfect? That’s one thing I never want. Maybe just perfect for me.
Wow people are really unbelievable.. All of this childish bs.. I don’t have time for it.. I don’t like it and I don’t do it.. I find it hilarious how people can really just keep centering theirselves around it.. STOP! just live your life! Stop creating new drama and situations for yourself its so pathetic.. And last but not least if you have a problem with me about anything you should let me know I’m not hard to talk to let me know what’s up to my face not via fb and twitter .. If you called me a friend but can’t even have to decency to talk to me about a problem your having then I really just don’t know what to say about you..
i really cant believe this year is almost over.. i love my life right now.. i have everything ive ever wanted! im so happy and i cant wait to start the new year off right!!! For once in my life its been ALL ABOUT ME! just me! ive never been happier.. thank to the one and only, God.. hes answered all prayers and i know many more to come in this new year :)
lol i wish marshe would hurry up and get here even though i told her she could take her time.. i mean i want her to take her time. but then again i want to talk to her. lol and im definitely not calling his phone, ha nooo way… although she called me from his phone this morning so i can call back, but no.. ill give her her space lol
ive noticed that as i grow older i have fewer and fewer problems with my close friends.. im getting good at weeding out people once one situation or two has happen. lol but if its normally a situation or two its always the same people.. i dont have a friendship problem, im a good ass friend. i listen, im always there, and i dont tell my friends business… but i do say what i want when i want… and i dont really forgive people, ever. ive only truly forgiven one person and thats gotten me no where. i learn my lesson the first time all the time. if we have problems i will never let that person get close to me again, ill be nice and civil and we can be cool, but well never be on the level we were before, im too smart for that. i think that everyone should be more like me, honestly. My best friends and I fight of course but ive never hurt them or backstabbed them ever, and i never would.
i just watched the movie Aladdin.. its so unfair. Disney makes every ending so happy, they always fall in love and everything is so perfect. Growing up watching aladdin cinderella and etc makes you believe in true love, but then reality hits and you realize the real world isnt like that at all.. ive always still hoped but then reality punches me in the face again.. i wish i could live my life as a fairy tale but no ones life is like a fairytale. so if parents know this then why do we still let our kids watch these movies? so they can grow up with all these dreams that will never come true.. its because people shield their children from reality.. i guess thats real love?
yesterday was my first day back in LA.. my old roommate kelsey surprised me and came to LA.. it was the best present ever! i miss her sooo much and im so happy she came to visit me!.. i also got to see my cousin lex! reva marshe lex and hi had sushi on melrose.. i also bought these cheetah heels ive been looking for for 3 MONTHS!!! it feels great to see my friends and go shopping.. im loving the weather, its a lot less cooler here.. i really do miss jaz dalainy and jay though. i wish they could have came up here with me theyd have so much fun.. all in all yesterday was a good day and i cant wait for today.. ha :)
ps: the best was seeing marshe since we r soulmates and all and now i just need to see asia
finally ive arrived in LA .. my second home.. the road trip was crowded but chill.. slow jams were playing on the radio and then it happened ..”when can i see you again” my eyes were closed as i begin mouthing off the lyrics.. and then i thought.. wow im never going to see you again and vice versa.. this is it… this is my life.. this is what happens.. it hadnt hit me yet.. “when can my heart beat again” .. i havent had any feeling for anyone or anything.. nothing phases me.. when will my heart beat again?.. i look over to my right at my friend and i know shes feeling the exact same way.. shes in sort of the same situation.. but here we are living our lives.. with no feelings, no thoughts, well….at least me.. ah finally the song is over.. and now we belong together - mariah carey .. i know every single word.. but i cant sing it because i dont know how to feel.. basically im over this radio station already..
ugh today was stressful.. i have so much on my mind but nothing at all, all at the same time.. make sense?.. nahh. i know you could never understand or begin to fathom how i feel. no one can.. im at a loss for words… lately all ive wanted to do is smoke with my friends and chill. thats not me at all.. im not the quiet person, but i cant speak. Theres nothing more than i want just to be alone or away from here from everyone.. im thinking about moving to florida.. that sounds like a brilliant idea. theres nothing more than i want right now than to cook and be ALONE.. but no one understands me.. no one at all.. A L O N E… that word doesnt even fit in the same sentence with my name.. but its all i want right now and NO ONE UNDERSTANDS.. alone alone alone.. fucking alone…